Find someone who isn’t afraid to admit that they miss you. Someone who knows that you’re not perfect, but treats you as if you are. Someone who’s biggest fear is losing you. One who gives their heart completely. Someone who says I love you and means it. Last but not least, find someone who wouldn’t mind waking up with you in the morning, seeing you in wrinkles and your gray hair, but still falls for you all over again.
All i see on my dashboard is “i dont like the way i look” or “i wished i could be as skinny as her” dgjhkjdg well shit if you dont like how you look in a certain way then do something about it. Make it a motivation to loose what makes you insecure about yourself. because posting about it every second is not going to loose it for you. ANOTHER thing…stop posting about your ex bfs and focus on your current one. who cares about “him” or “them” if you hate them so much, leave them in your past and dont bring them up in the present or future. That’s why you loose followers because you cant seem to have faith in yourself that you CAN work hard to look a certain way . just do it
I’m not perfect. I go through shit just like everybody else. I know I ask for advice and I never listen to it because its hard for me. I haven’t been happy for awhile. I’m not trying to make excuses but if you were put in my situation, you would be devastated too. You would feel broken, alone, and depressed. This never happened to me before and I’m trying my best to take the advice but there’s just something that holds me back. I cant lie to myself and say “im over him” when the fact is, im not. And for you to say that I’m wasting your time it makes me sad. Yes, I am. But you are one of my best friends& it hurts. Aren’t best friends suppose to be there for you? Which you are and I’m so glad to have you in my life but also put up with my bullshit and mistakes? I hope you can understand. I love you and I want to say thank you for helping me from the bottom of my heart.
I didn’t have to stay. I didn’t have to put up with all your bullshit. I could have left like everybody else. But did I? No. I stayed. I put up with everything you gave to me, whether I deserved it or not. I shared with you your pain, laughter, tears. I fought for you while everyone else gave up. Why can’t you see that I actually care about you? That I actually love you? That I’m actually here to stay? Instead, you push everyone away, including me.
Honestly, I feel like crap. I’ve been really depressed lately. I hide it from my friends and family because I don’t want them to worry. I feel so alone because everyone is just doing their thing. I don’t even know who to call anymore when I need to talk to someone. I can’t even call my best friends. I never thought that one specific person could do so much damage to me emotionally. Its just the reason why it ended kills me every time. I wake up not looking forward to my day and sit lifeless thinking about how insecure I feel about myself and how I’m not good enough. I cry every night wishing things would get better, but it hasn’t. I’m just praying for the day where everything will be okay again and ill be back to normal.
There will always be this part of me that misses you. And I hate this part so much.
